What 19 Days of Journaling Revealed to Me

Three weeks ago, I was feeling lost and disconnected from myself, and I needed some guidance. So I opened my Akashic Records for the first time in a while and sat down with Archangel Jeremiel.

During that session, he encouraged me to journal every night as a way to reconnect with myself and gain clarity on my path. These are the journal prompts he gave me to work with:

1. What happened today?

2. What did you feel? Name the emotions.

3. What do you need?

4. What are you hoping for from tomorrow?

He also told me to pay attention over time to what I wrote about a lot and to notice the emotions and themes that kept coming up. He encouraged me to notice how I responded to those emotions, what lit me up, and what drained me.

He said that if I journaled like this, “the answers to what’s next on my path will reveal themselves.”

So I started that night, and for 19 days straight, I journaled. I had no idea what I would uncover, but here’s what I found.

Because I focused on naming my emotions each night, I started noticing feelings that I may have otherwise continued to push into the background. One of the emotions that stood out was guilt. I noticed myself naming it often, and usually in situations where I didn’t actually need to feel guilty or hold onto the guilt so tightly.

This made me realize that guilt had most likely been running in the background for a while. I had already understood, cognitively and intellectually, that much of my guilt was unjustified and didn’t need to be there. Because I knew that, I had learned to push it to the back of my mind and move on.

But knowing that something is unnecessary doesn’t necessarily mean we’ve fully processed it. I realized that while I had gotten pretty good at recognizing when guilt was coming from old childhood programming, I hadn’t necessarily been allowing myself to feel it, understand what was underneath it, and then let it go. For me, that childhood programming looked like feeling overly responsible and feeling guilty for having needs.

I’m not sure how long I had been carrying this guilt without fully processing it, but it had been happening long enough that I had started noticing the effects in my body. I had been noticing body symptoms that suggested I wasn’t fully letting go of an emotion.

This was especially confusing because I had been focusing a lot on anger. I had been setting boundaries, asserting myself, and doing a lot of work around anger and childhood wounds. So when my body was still showing signs that something was going on, I couldn’t figure out what I was missing.

The journaling helped me see what I hadn’t been seeing before: maybe it wasn’t just the anger that needed my attention. Maybe it was also the guilt that I hadn’t been fully acknowledged.

What I was reminded of was that I needed to first sit with the emotion and let myself feel it, then be with my younger self in it and validate it before I could fully let it go.

Somewhere over the years, I had unknowingly shortened this process. I had gone from feeling an emotion to letting it go cognitively, without giving myself enough space to fully process it on a somatic level. In other words, I understood the emotion, but I hadn’t necessarily allowed myself to fully experience and move through it.

So I have begun to do with guilt what I’ve been doing with anger for some time now. I feel it, connect to the younger part of myself, especially if the emotion feels “irrational,” and validate it. Then I talk to that younger part to help them understand what’s going on so they can let it go.

This is what the journaling ultimately gave me: a clearer understanding of what was underneath some of the things I had been experiencing and what needed my attention. I discovered something that was getting in the way of my path, and now I can continue working on clearing the path so it’s easier to see what’s next and walk down it.

The journaling also helped me see other things. And even though no major answers were given, I somehow felt less lost. I think a big part of that was that I had reconnected with myself again. And when I am connected to myself, it’s easier to hear my intuition, my guides, and any other messages waiting for me.

Maybe sometimes finding our way forward isn’t about immediately knowing what’s next. Maybe it’s about reconnecting with ourselves first, paying attention to what keeps coming up, and allowing the answers to reveal themselves in time.

Sometimes the clarity we’re looking for isn’t something we need to go out and find. It’s something that becomes easier to hear when we slow down, turn inward, and reconnect with ourselves.

If you’re feeling disconnected from yourself or looking for support as you navigate what’s next, I’d love to work with you. My intuitive coaching sessions offer space to slow down, reconnect with yourself, and explore what your intuition may be trying to show you. You can learn more about working with me here.